Verse 1: How many times have I asked myself the same old question,
Wondering again and again: is it all worth it?
Yet I've seen so much and I know it's true,
So I need to keep my faith in You.
Keep my grasp on the facts.
It's a scary ride through my past.
But I ask You to make me strong.
Because I know I'll be loosed from these heart-rending doubts
Once I've got all the issues and lies figured out.
Every night I fall asleep
Asking why I still want to keep
The old monster.
Verse 2: As I fight against the old desires, it's so exhausting.
I can't help but wonder again, is it all worth it?
I see all my life I've been so strong,
And growing stronger all along.
Yet I see - silly me -
I used to think that I was weak.
I just wanted to be that way.
No, I don't have all the answers, but one thing I know:
These delusions of weakness have sure got to go.
I'm so used to the abuse,
I don't want to accept the truth that uplifts me.
Verse 3: I know I can't go on like this, so weak and helpless.
I'm starting to think again, it must be worth it.
Because if I'm too weak to help myself,
I can't help anybody else.
So I'll go for the goal.
I've got to do it for my soul,
And for those who walk in my steps.
Because what I want to offer will not be the same
As the empty entrapments of this evil game.
I don't want to pass it on,
I've been in it for far too long already.
